Second Confession: I am NOT a Commodity

Here is my thought, (and I don't really know what to do with it) marriage is not a way to "pimp" yourself out with a ring as payment.  

In our overly sensualized society, we have pushed so hard to make our young people stay pure that I think marriage has become an idol meant to save us from a life of lust and sin.  "Just hold out until you get married." But isn't that making marriage into our savior, not Jesus.  We are still selling ourselves to "get some," we just make sure to have a marriage licensed signed first.  

Marriage should be a way to glorify God by giving your life to another person, not a way to give our bodies "in a Godly way" so that we don't have to be lonely.  

So here is my Confession: I have been viewing myself as a commodity. Something to sell off to anyone at the price of a gold band.  I sell myself, you get my body and I don't have to be alone. All under the guise of a healthy God fearing union.   But what if I am worth more than that?  What if the guy is worth more than that?  

We are not just an avenue to get something, we are living breathing image bearers of The Great I AM.  We are children of the Most High King.  Marriage should never just be a way to not be lonely... It should be about love... and not the movie-ized, over romanticized, "you make me feel good" version of love, but the real true, sacrificial love that brings two lives together in actual relationship with each other and Christ.  

Now, really I am just 26 and I have never been married, so what do I know?  And my words seem flat compared to what I feel inside and want to actually say...But at the very least I know that I want to be loved for who I am and not what I can give.  And I want to love someone for who they are... 

And I know that Jesus just wants the same.    

  

First Confession: I Hate Blogs

I hate introductory posts.  The "Hello's" and "Welcomes," with just grand ideas in the beginning, that never seem to pan out in the end.  Really I hate blogging.  Hate having to be witty or brilliant so that others might find what I am saying as interesting. But I want a way to write out my thoughts, thoughts about who God is and who I am and how sometimes I fail, but He never does.  I want a place to be real, that it might bring someone a little spark of hope, in a world that is anything but hopeful sometimes. 

"Dark, but lovely," comes from Song of Solomon 1:5, where the maiden says that her skin is dark from having to shepherd her flocks, but she says that she is still lovely.  I love this verse because I think that it shows who we really are.  We are "dark," we are windblown and sunburned from a world that only beats us down, but we are lovely because we are loved by a Savior who didn't see us as our failures.  Our beloved see us as lovely and so we are lovely. 

I guess this is just a way to say... "Here I a world, imperfect, but perfectly loved... Dark, but lovely."